TOO MUCH STUDIES+TOO.......

So today was so impossibly long, I'm fucking tired, my back hurts. the hard wooden chair cracked my butt, bunch of hanzi filled waiting to practice. ......................deng deng,
am releived just to be in my room and have the option to crawl into bed but not for hours or so.......
This week is long and i truly meant it when i say that, Our teacher changed the previous timetable to new one, i didnt like it because it doesnt give us enough time to review lessons. from monday to wednesday is hell of lessons, i start my class at 8am till 3pm, i only got 1 hour lunch break and on thursday nd friday each two lessons.
Am not giving myself leisure moments since i wanna improve my studies, i know i dont have time to do whatever i like to do but then its so difficult to do what you didnt use to. am not majoring mandarin, eighter am i plan to profile it but what i really want is do the best i can to pass the HSK exam. its not easy task to do that.
the other thing is my class is getting more crazy, more funny like, sometimes it goes even beyond joke and words all go wiered. we enjoy the little laughter but behind every smile there is different meaning, some laugh coz maybe someone spoke or read sentence and we feel its funny, others smile behind twisted lips and feel unlucky to be at that position. other even feel superiour than all, LoL!.
am not critizing anyone or slamming someone for some reasons but matter of fact this is all misconception of one another, we all the same its just that we think better than other.
i laugh, joke and have fun with everyone but i dont know whats in their heart, i can only read their eyes and the dislikes in some faces. my point is clear, i came to gain knowledge so i dont give a fuck to whatever you say or think about me.

Now, at this point, I'm freezing. Really, really cold. I've piled on my big fluffy bedspread (this is the same one I halfway throw off every night because it's too hot), and my Sleep Blanket (you didn't think I'd leave that in the Midwest, did you? It has superpowers of heat!), and I'm still shivering. Can't really sleep,