ANOTHER HURSH DAY

Well after last nights little emotional-fest, I had some pretty crazy messed up dreams. Which I will actually make in another post, because, well, it was just a little too crazy to fit into a five minute post. I had my alarm set for 11:00 because I didn't have to be at the subway station until 12:15. So out of nowhere my friend comes up the stairs at 9:00 and right into my room, while I'm sleeping and decides to wake me up and tell me to get ready. This is something that irks me, because I'm old enough to get up on my own and fully ready. I'm 22, the only reason I'm on bed is because of medical reasons. So in my half-sleep state I told him, "I know how to get up in the morning, I'm not a child." To which he replied something, but I was definitely not fully conscious. So basically I was late to class and to put the icing on the cake I got my quiz back in chinese language character(HANZI) and I got a fucking 58%..... Apparently I messed up the entire paper about essay writtin....so now I'm basically ready to just sit down, drink coffee, or stay up in da air. OH I also forgot to take my medicine, because I was in such a huff this morning, so everything was hitting hard. Basically, when I get upset, it's just a trigger to let all the bad thoughts into my head. All the bad memories, all the sad thoughts. I still have these thoughts. I really hope monday goes well, because i have so many classes, and for some reason it's the only time where I'm calm. Well, here's to monday!