FEELING HEADACHE

Fuck Tonight am feeling headache, i cant sit and watch my favorite videos for long but been sitting sometime now watching documentary clips of US HOOD gangs called Hood 2 Hood, its interesting to watch how this brutal mohfwakers kill each other and run da neighbourhoods. i couldnt finish watching all da clips coz am filling ma head down, my skull hurts. It feels like someone is jabbing their finger tips into ma temples and someone else is beating me senseless with a baseball bat in an area above my ear on the right side. And every couple minutes, I get a weird pain behind my ear, too
i dont know if its da blunt i burned a while ago or other shit. my nerves are High, so high that i dont feel ma head.
I wonder if it's possible for someone who has suffered from chronic depression to just stop realizing that they are depressed. I feel like that's happening to me. I'm exhibiting all the signs of depression again, but inside I don't feel depressed. Is it possible that I've been depressed for so long that I don't realize that I am anymore? For the past week or so, I've been feeling really tired, no motivation or ambition, wanting to just be by myself all day, etc.
I'm also getting nervous again every day. I'm having trouble thinking and remembering stuff again. It's like a cycle or something. I don't know what's going on, but maybe I'm hanging out at night too much. Who knows?
I just know that even my friends have noticed this change in me and are concerned. I hope I don't fall back into depression again. Fuck.