TIME IZZZZZZ TAKING ME AWAY

It has been so long since I posted on here.

And so much has happened.


Today i had would-be the most difficult class in my entire degree, Chinese History. This course is long and very difficult, its a History that started more than 5000yrs ago. for me its would have simple if it was taught in English but we are taught in chinese language but i like it. during the class i was trying to ask some of my classmates if they could explain to me some of the text on the board but even them born chinese still have difficulties. do you how its feels to attend class and understand nothing?.

Time is very fast in this part of the world, something i find myself on the bed in the evening did nothing especial the whole day coz you never know jow you ended up. it's 1:30 in the morning, and I want to get to bed, but i can't because my mind is filled with too many thoughts. To many questions, and not enough answers.
Ok, this might sound absolutly mental, but actually am scared of time. I freek out when I realise how things have changed. I try not to think about how many months has passed but I think not thinking about it on regular basis might do more harm than good. I was just remembering back when I just arrived here a year ago.
last week i had one week break, its was fine. went out with couple of my friends to try and eat thailand food...(waw).its was really Delicious. i just wished i was eating with one of my brothers like ILKO. i guess he would have finished the whole dinner.

So yeah. Things are going along better than ever, and I have found a great deal of peace within myself. I am pleased to be no longer as emo as I used to be. lol
I am more in touch with myself now than I think I have ever been. I dont wise things so much, I go with the flow a lot easier, but I also work hard to create the reality I want for myself.

I'm proud of myself for the things I've done and do, and I've healed a lot of crap from my past.

I enjoy my life and I love my family so much, they have helped bring me back from some of the darkest times in my life.