FRUSTRATION

Am so Frustrated, and am so tired of everything. i know a lot of people back home think am enjoying so much here but only Allah knows what i go through everyday. Life aint easy here, the most difficult part is studies. Courses that have nothing to do with your profession, books that you dont understand, Homework that you will never ever do in the right way, and understanding the social life of the college. i have tried my best and i wont give up trying but at the moment things not right especially studies which is getting more difficult. This semester i have video editing and Chinese calligraphy courses as part of my semester courses, i use adobe premier for the editing which i have never used before and again its in Chinese so understanding the words of which some of them have been translated from English is too annoying. i get used to Corel studio for video editing and photoshop for pictures, corel studio is not the same as adobe premier but almost have the same features. i have been using this program for more than a year which means it wont give me hard time finishing my Homework on Time but as most of the News media prefer Adobe premier we have to Learn how to use it and get familiar with all the features. i love though because it will make your works look more professional as long as you know how to use it.
The year is almost over few more days remaining, and am so grateful to Allah(SW) for giving me everything that i have without Him nothing could have been possible.
recently my biggest challenge is BUDGET, i dont have any budget and as college student who dont have part time job or any other source of income other than the scholarship its challenging. you must have budget and plans for everything and that means you must have guidelines of everything that you do but as for me i dont have anything except what makes sense to me. i spend money like aint nothing to me which is wrong perception, i hope am gonna change the way i spend nd make a budget at least maybe i can save few pounds every month.....if i dont do that then am gonna be broke every end month like now, am broke i cant even buy myself bread hehhehe.
Winter was officially announced yesterday by the local meteorological department, am not fun of cold nd snow. i hate myself when the winter season is approaching, you cant do anything and i makes me more lazy. i remember back in Kenya people use to complain about Hot weather, although its very Hot you cant compare to cold. i wish i could go back Home this winter vacation enjoy with my family and friends...tell all the weird stories i have in mind.....and meet my mum. i never thought i will ever miss my mum like this, i usually communicate with her but that is not enough and you wont realize when you are with your family how much you love and care about them until you are far away. The best part of life is when you are surrounded by your family not even best friends this days, people are getting stranger including myself.