The start of this new year tragedy happened in my family, we lost our grand mother who was in her 80's. she was sick for long time with stoke paralising her left leg and hand. i havent seen her for 2 years but the last i went to visit her she was very sick so i can imagine after two years in such situation how serious she was and i remember while chatting with aden just before her death he said Hooyo mako is on the grave. now she gone and gone forever, may Allah REST HER SOUL IN peace. Our Granny partially raised us especially the three girl, she to takecare of them and helped mom raise them. i know we will never forget her stories she use to narrate to us in the evening after long day from school. Alow ku naxariiso.
When I started this blog originally, I did mean for it to be a daily outlet where I could express my day-to-day thoughts and feelings. Sometimes I did unload a lot onto here and it did help - but a lot of the time, I didn't feel like dragging everything back up, dredging through it all and writing it up. Also, I didn't always keep up with the daily blogging idea - I'd leave empty ones then return to them later to update them.
I'm not going to stop the blog entirley - I'm just going to blog when I feel I need time to unload, or if there's been something I want to document. Although this webpage to me, among other things - is a representation of the majority of my life in china. If I'd kept blogging daily until the end of January, I would have managed it for a whole year, but things don't always work out the way you plan.
Recently, my depression is more than ever been - am getting into arguements, refusing to fulfill ma duties, struggling to move, getting frustrated with all of my barriers and blocks that prevented me from doing what I wanted to do.
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