every moment is a chance to change

Is it possible to feel freedom when u want it. When i do have the freedom it is trapped in a box that i do not take advantage of. As if i can just capture them and put them away and use them up like a get our of jail free card. As a update..I have been on a break from school..the semester ended...and it is four week break.

I used up 2 of my weeks already of being online, watching documentary-movies, a occasional visit from close friends, and finaly i might want to add..i added this 2nd week of weight gain plan. I eat like a donk eating anything of high calories..

so i went grocery shopping today and managed to buy some pretty healthy foods. I actually did some cooking today. I made a vegan beet and carrot salad, vegan hummus, cucumber salad with greek yogurt, and for desert I made this really good banana dessert. It has frozen bananas, raw cacao powder, and just a little bit of frozen raspberrries on top

Like anything else built or born, you will eventually succumb to the weight of the world or the weight of walking on it. It seems to be the only thing you have to come to terms with. That one day you will be lost. They will lose you. You will be forgotten and never heard from again. No one will ever know the story that was your life. Dead much longer than you will be alive. Some may say this is sad or depressing but in fact it proves to be quite the contrary. Imagine the weight lifted off your shoulders. Pure undeniable freedom! But first you must reach it. “It is not until you have lost everything that you are free to do anything." Until you realize that you are hopeless

Everyday, every hour, every moment is a chance to change it all. Each packed full of life determining decisions which affect you and everything around you. Which really in the grand scheme of things is very miniscule; a simple spec in the timeline of existence. We live... we experience all that we can... and then we die. You will be dead much longer than you will be alive. This is the truth of things so you'd better get used to the idea.

The lives of men and women, cat's and dogs, birds and fish, are all simply hiccups in an endlessness that will never be realized by anyone. You are here now and you will be gone in some years, months, perhaps even days or hours. The execution of this plan will never change even though you will do your best to convince yourself otherwise. We merely feed of the scraps of words and wares consolidated by those that came before us.

LIFE IS AMAZING, but never equal........i feel three words against eachother, peace, love, and equality. these three words never liked eachother and people being seperated lacking of one of these.

Whatever life may bring or take Allah knows

another dream that i need to fulfill...instead of living this life-i need to participate in finding who i am and making up for lost time.
i want to keep writing..but