UNHEALTHY SEASON

Its weekend again, two days of resting and yacking. its never same but i wonder how fast the time is, just woke up now its almost evening.
The past few days i was not feeling well, i was sick and again tired of whatever am doing here. i was worried about my health that maybe it gets worse than i thought, maybe am not taking care of myself or maybe am not doing enough to secure my soul. i dont like to complain about my health or even discuss with anyone but times am forced to speakout. i keep silent for long trying not to bother anyone for anything regarding me except Safiyo who is tryna care about, she holds her breath and sends me the little she affords but never enough. i know she tries hard to help me but still sometimes she hold back. i wish i didnt complained, i wish i had healthier life, i wish Hooyo was somewhere in Wisconsin or Nevada crossing bridges to change our life.
the winter is here again, i call it the unhealthy season becoz of its unhealthy weather, last winter wasnt that i wished. i got Allergy and pneumonia, its freezing for me here even the fall for the kid like me who grow up in places like IFO and Garissa. this winter am planing to get away from these ice-covered blocks to somewhere i can at least breath better oxy-y-y gen.
these place is changing me, i can already feel the change in me, part of me is already dead and gone. my life is on the fast lane driving me away from my thoughts and beliefs. some of the things i do or even witness is far from away from where my roots come from, am different and that i should not forget that am different. the mood here is so strong and anytime you can find urself strapped in dirty and evil places where the law is ruled by sonica and sasha with smelly belly.
O' ALLAH forgive me