UPDATES

Nothing much happened in past few days accept being broke ass for two straight weeks, i had no coin on my own in my pocket. i dont like myself when am broke, i cant even socialize with people or even get out of my room. i dont have budget which makes everything worse for me, to survive in this world you need to have budget written down and spend it as planned not just that you wish. i learned alot from my experiences in these country. the Halloween party came and everyone was out, partying till dawn away from institutions. it was fun and i enjoyed it although we didnt sleep the whole night but it worth everybody got cracked.
Time is against me taking away everything, i dont have enough time for everything. already its year and few weeks and there's up and down, i made progress that changed my whole life into different person. i find so many things challenging, its that not simple to study here unless you are genius, not easy to attend a class that you get pissed in every minute or to listen a teacher that you dont understand whatever he is explaining. next monday i will be sitting for my mid-term exams, students are getting prepared but what should i prepare? I don't even know what the fuck i'm doing anymore. What am I thinking? who fucking cares. two more weeks of this hell, two more months of another hell, then one or two months of what will hopefully be a break that i can escape from just as easily in febuary. then i'm back to what, this? read books that's what most of you will be telling me, am not reading books now instead am drinking coffee and enjoy myself. i always keep low and am not complaining but just explaining anyway am happy with whatever i do and whoever i am.
Mean while the cold weather is back again, the season that makes feel depressed and stressed, the more cold i feel the more coffee i drink the addict i got to be. funny that in just oneday the whole summer changed into winter temperature dropping upto 0 degrees. am already these winter not like last.